I’ve known this day was coming since February when I received my genetic test results, but now we have a surgery date. June 8th, 2011 I will be having my prophylactic bilateral mastectomy with expander reconstruction. I will be in the hospital a couple of days and then will be at home for 4-6 weeks.
Over the next month, I will be cleaning up my office and make arrangements for the duties that must be done while I’m gone and figure out what can wait. Thankfully, the taxes are done (corporate and individual). The taxes (as well as Jason and Haley’s school schedules) were the main reason for waiting.
I talked to my big boss today (I have 4, but only one actually oversees my work) and he told me that he will meet with me several times over the next month, so we can work everything out. He said that he would even spend more time in the office if necessary, so that I won’t worry about things getting done. We’ll see how that works out.
I need to make an appointment with my plastic surgeon to go over what exactly is going to happen. I have a pretty good idea from researching the internet and from April’s blog. She has been a lifesaver to me. She has even been brave enough to post pictures and I hope she realizes how much that has helped me.
I would love to be able to provide the same type of support, but all I can think about is my husband’s students finding the pictures. Password protecting the pictures would be an option, but I wonder how many women would actually email me for the password. That is something I need to decide in the next month.
Hopefully, I will update y’all each week leading up to the surgery. I’m sure that I’m going to get more nervous as it gets closer, but I do know that this is the best thing for me.
Cancer is happening all around me. My friend, Lisa, was diagnosed not too long after me, but her situation was so much more advanced than mine. She is currently undergoing chemotherapy and will also have to do radiation.
Michelle at Knock, Knock, it’s cancer, has had so many complications and is currently undergoing chemotherapy.
I feel incredibly blessed and guilty at the same time. I had cancer, but it was non-invasive, so no chemo, no radiation, no nothing. Right now it just feels like I had surgery for something other than cancer. I know come June when I have my prophylactic bilateral mastectomy with reconstruction I will feel differently, but right now I just wonder why I was spared and these other wonderful women are having to go through this.
Last weekend I went on my annual Women’s Retreat to Mo Ranch. Before leaving I was talking to my boss who is very open about his faith. He was telling me how blessed I am and I said I guess God has big plans for me. My boss quoted Jeremiah 29:11 to me “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and hot to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” While walking around the gift store on Saturday afternoon, a key chain with this verse practically jumped out at me. It is now hanging on my key ring.
I took time while I was at Mo Ranch to visit the Labyrinth. Even though I had walked the Labyrinth on on of my previous visits, I felt I needed to walk it this time. The Labyrinth is our path to God. The path has only one way to God, but it is filled with twists and turns. At times we are very close to God and then in a few steps we are far away. Walking towards the center, tears were streaming down my face. I thought about my journey that I have been on lately and the path my life has gone through, but once I reached the center I felt completely different and walked the path back out smiling and feeling at peace. It is such a wonderful experience and I plan on researching Labyrinths as soon as tax season is over. I know there are some Labyrinths at closer churches and I hope to visit them when I feel like I need to walk the path again.
I’m way overdo for an update, so I figure we’ll start where I left off with my last appointment.
Going into my appointment with the plastic surgeon I was leaning towards the TRAM Flap procedure. It’s kind of like a tummy tuck and breast reconstruction at the same time. Muscle, fat, and skin from the abdomen region is used to create the new breast.
Dr. Robert Fernandez was the first plastic surgeon I met with. He showed me some pictures of before and after with implants and TRAM Flap. He told me that he doesn’t do the TRAM Flap anymore and refers patients to his partner Dr. Vijay K. Bindingnavele, but Dr. Fernandez didn’t think I had enough stomach fat for the procedure. I met with Dr. Vijay the next week and he confirmed Dr. Fernandez’s assessment, so instead of getting my tummy tuck, I will only be getting new boobs.
Thanks to RoseAnn, I have been introduced to a new blog to follow. Her cancer situation is more advanced than mine, but I’m glad to have someone else to follow along with.
Thank you for your continued prayers. Surgery will be sometime the first or second week of June, so that Jason and H can be out of school and not have to worry about missing days. Jason may miss a day or two of summer school depending on when the surgery is, but we will find a way to manage. My sister has already told me that she will be taking some days off to come and help out at the house.